my list

these are some of the things I would love to do
these are also things I have started to do.

everyday I need to tell two people they are loved and appriciated and that I am thinking of them.
I do not want to leave people wondering about their places in my life and heart and do not want to leave things unspoken life is short and regrets are hard to overcome.

I will do something just for myself minimum once a week

I will finish my course in hotel reception then I will finish my ECE course or that is what I would like to do if I can handle the pressure of having a job and doing the course.

I want to learn Bahasa Melayu to the point I actually know what I am saying and hearing lol

I want the new years count down kiss .... in all my years I have never gotten the kiss at the Zero count.(it might seem odd but there is just a part inside me that thinks its romantic somehow)

I want to have a family of my own a family I can be a real family with in the future I would really love to be a mother.

I think it would be great to have twins but I don't get to choose that lol

I would love to have 4 children though 6 is ok too lol

I want to move out of Canada

I would love to get the rest of my tat finished

I would love to meet my dearest friends online in real life

I want to swim naked with a man I fancy not in a pool but in nature

I want to jump off a waterfall

I want to sleep in an igloo and in the ice hotel

I want to get married on water

I want to be with the man I marry til the day I die being the only one I spend my life with in close shared intimacy.

I used to want to only be with one man the one I gave my all to the man I loved with everything I was and had but I realized I had never fallen into the depths of real and true love because I never loved or knew the true inner being as well as the outer one.I just loved what I thought I knew I also thought I loved when I had never truly known what love meant.

now I want to be with a man who is my bestfriend as well as lover a man who can be my equal as I can be his.

I want to be 120 lbs again

I want to be baptized

I want to sleep under the stars with nothing above me but the sky

I want to go to South Korea Japan Malaysia and many other places

the more I try to think of what I want to do and see and who I want to be the less I am able to think of lol

Two songs stuck in my head atm both have the same name and I feel this way.