Emoness

there is this pain that keeps coming back time and time again
the past couldn't prepare me for this
maybe thats because I let the mistrust go
or maybe it's because I learnt to truly believe in people

so much has happened in the past months

it hurts to feel a person truly is a million miles away from you whenever the person leaves I feel like I will cry because that small connection we have is lost the draw bridge between their world and mine has turnt to straw and flown in the wind when they are here the ropes are frayed but the bridge is still there when they leave the ropes that were binding yet frayed unwind complete I feel as though I am free falling.

why do I crave love and affection so much is it because I feel it so much and just want some of it returned to me to know that these strong feelings I hold are accepted and returned. I lvoe my friends and feel the need to show it to them but I need them to show their affections towards me as well.

how long must I wait for my dreams to come true?
I am losing hope in things I long for because there is no positive sign that things are worth fighting for anymore. Things feel empty and I don't like it, I haven't written in such a long time so here is a blog not so happy bunny over and out.