gave up

so I've kinda given up on writing blogs. whenever I think of something to write I get distracted.
My sister is going to be having her twin daughters next month , I'm excited I do not feel very envious of her anymore. My bestfriend is preparing to move  this summer it will be even harder to see her  once she moves but it's for the best so I've come to terms with it. I do still feel lonely though. Testifying in court on the 4th of June I hope to get it all over with so I can start living my life properly.I need to start seeing my doctor again as well . I'm busy paying back a debt so I don't have much money for other things at the moment.

My kpop collection is growing though at the moment I've currently misplaced some cds I still haven't found. I have been joining online greets  like an addict because I truly got addicted! I now have A FTIsland cd signed by Seunghyun , AOA signed cd, 100%V signed cd, Block B signed cd, and some other cds still in the mail !

I'm looking forward to 100% and MBLAQs greets!I would have loved to buy the jun.k necklace but people be out of their minds paying 99.99 for it! that better be some real everything for that price! and the fact they are only picking 3 people per  45 ppl  crazy shit ! and more crazy is that someone actually bought 9!!!!!

I've managed to finish  one boy love original novel  that took me over 2 years to write, now I am working on my second  one it's called Serenade. I've come pretty far in it already  like the first one I based it on 3 volumes of 7 chapters or 7 emails sent this one is much shorter than the last one and not just because I pour more time into Home. I am already on the 3rd volume and it's only been 2 weeks since I started writing I am trying to test my limits and I am trying my best not to get any writers block like I got with Home.

I haven't been on the best of terms with my aunt recently, she started off as a supporter to me in my decision to get pregnant clinically. Now she sings a different tune and was trying to undermine every choice I am trying to make for myself and comparing us and such ,  And because of some very truthful yet harsh comments I made she has decided I am a man hating lesbian. Which is the farthest thing from the truth I do not sexually identify with being a lesbian , romantically I identify as Pansexual and sexually I call myself straight when asked because honestly explaining what it means to be pansexual is bothersome and people do not understand anyways.

Time for me to get back to League Of Angels now

god bless

MJ