Been forever!

I have had this blog for a long time and I have been seriously neglecting my blogs ...I suck. So what new and interesting things have I been up to in my absence ? Hmm well I FINALLY finished going to court with my psycho ex boyfriend and Justice did NOT prevail but I am living my life according to me. According to others I still don't have much of a life outside of my home ... that's half true. I have amazing twin nieces that I love dearly and cherish every moment I get to spend with them it's gotten pretty bad since I have become totally obsessed lol I always take their pictures or videos and post them on my Instagram @emjahay check it out if you want. Don't fall in love with them though they are mine and I am not sharing. Back in May or there abouts I was always paranoid going out with them to the grocery store, my reasoning behind that was the hoards of people that would not only stop us and be all over them but a few creepers who would follow us through the and ask us questions about them nonstop "Back off lady  you ain't kidnapping these babies! stop getting so personal with us!"  ran through my head on repeat I'll be a terrifying mother when that day comes lol. My best friend moved further from me so I don't get to see her as much but the loves still strong between us because life long friends don't make a fuss of how little time they see each other but make the most of every time they do see one another.

I have started making my AMV's again right now I am on a SkipBeat trend and loving it so much ! I got a new pc with windows 8.1 the program is more confusing so I have been browsing for other editing programs as well and hope to make some really great videos in the near future. I am still a huge fan of Manga, anime and KPOP my guilty pleasure atm is GOT7 the young guys make me feel  less old lol unless I am gawking at them then I feel like a perverted old maid haha.

There are loads of things going on in the world that I just can't believe and I have trouble believing this is the world I lived in 16 years ago when I was still able to find human decency how is it that we are getting worse and not better? how is it our progress in society lacks so much depth and understanding?
I love the internet and I love electronics to a certain degree same thing with tv but what happened to socializing in normal ways? They destroyed all the parks and made them all centered around toddlers so older kids  have less fun  while outdoors and opt to stay in since there is nothing to do outside but get into trouble wandering around. Back when I was 13-14 years old we still played in the park every day all summer we would play in the parks go on hikes swim and camp out if not at a camping ground due to money then in a back yard or on our balcony we knew how to be resourceful we were creative we didn't go snowboarding when I was a kid since we were poor but we used cardboard boxes and we had our  snow gear we made every minute count. Now Every minute is counted as one more away from the tv or internet  one less minute of playing roblox, minecraft or pokemon. Before we didn't have to call before going over to a friends to make sure they were home because "I don't want to waste a trip going there and back" we walked over to our friends and rang the door bell if they were home great if they weren't we would call them later and come back tomorrow. It wasn't hard to know where everyone was on any given day  because we all went to the same places to hang out and we all communicated with each other there was no "well didn't you get my text?" we wrote hand written letters and passed them in class without getting caught and having a 500$ electronic confiscated . When I was 13 and 14 there was less drugs going around in the hands of children now it seems like half the kids of that age are all going around getting stoned having sex and drinking. This really isn't the kind of world I thought I'd be living in, when I was in grade school I never had to worry about the dangers of someone bringing a gun or knife to school to kill people, not that it hadn't happened before but it wasn't something I had to fear or knew others had to fear. These days daycare children aren't even safe from psychos never mind grade school or high school students. We live in a depressing time we never imagined would come to be and all I can do is hope that I can help my nieces and nephews make better choices for their lives. I have to go now butt here is my video for the day I just made it today