The dark side of me

I was bullied my whole life in school and outside of school

I have alot of confidence until I am sitting by myself at night

I believe more in others than I believe in myself

I have stolen many times in my life

I have never been arrested but I have hideden a criminal and rode in a cop car too many times to count I've also had the cops pick me up from school in grade 7.

I have cheated on tests before

I have been suicidal

I have inflicted self harm

I have smoked and smoked up

I was an alcoholic when I was 18

I beat someone over the back with a 40 ounce glass bottle :"it didn't break"

I beat my favourite big brother with a pool cue

I stole 58$ from my father when I was around 9

I used to explore abandoned buildings

I still blame myself for claytons death years ago even though it wasn't my fault at all.

I am agressive and when I get really angry I throw things or imagine hitting the person with a frying pan or pot lol

these are some of the darker side to me things