yup yup that's me.
recently I have felt very much like there is a bomb ticking inside of me, it's ready to blow at any time.
How does she piss me off SO easily ? I have deep affection for her but recently all I can think is god I want to smack her around!
I feel she is starting a silent war this woman with no name, this woman I will name Nanashi (she with no name) just for the sake of giving her a name.
There is a line she is starting to cross ever so slowly, the line between me being a sister and me being a bitch.
I am a nice person but every nice person has an evil dirty devil dwelling inside, the life I have lived has given me a sinister demon within my soul very deeply buried but it is there.
Cross the line and watch me morph into psycho bitch, I am so patient and passive with many but you can only push me so far.
I have stuck by the side of my friends as well as I can, I do not know why so many do not believe in returning that kidness.
I am fed up of so much I can't even find words to truly express myself.
Ammar tonight told me I am not like myself, he is right I hide my feelings normally I just smile at people and joke around.
Many people do not know my sensitive emotional side but thats very much the biggest part of me I just hide the emoness well.
I am overwhelmed by agression and negitivity and ready to burst, it's only a matter of time before I morph and transform into a me I have never shown, a me not many know.
I will take this time to apologize in advance to the ones I love the most I just feel I am at the end of my rope. I am always open and honest and that will never change the difference is with the ones hurting and angering me I maybe cruel and it will have nothing to do with cruel to be kind I will be cruel to be brutal as they have been to me and my heart.
and my song choice for now is The Rasmus In the Shadows
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