miss you

I miss you enough to cry just thinking of you makes my heart clench although I smile at the thought of you my heart hurts missing you why do we all live so far apart normally I wish I was somewhere else now I wish we were all somewhere else being with just one person I love and miss it may be enough but being with all the ones I love and miss would be best I am lonely and hurting I feel like I am lost in a sea of people whom I don't know a sea of faces that don't know mine I feel like I've a festering tumor in my mind waiting to rob me of my thoughts & consciouness like I will blank out and fade away into nothingness I feel as though I am a ticking walking time bomb unsure of when I may explode and who may become one of my casulties

I can't add a video it wont work once I get home I will add one