this was written by Amanda*now called Dustin* she gave me this and I want to share it.
It is better to love then not to love at all.. As one of my friends told me.. But then why is it that all love does is cause you pain? Why is it no matter whom you love you know you are going to get hurt.. In one way or another... You want to let them in but you can not... Why because you know what is going to happen.. When do you feel like you love someone? How do you know you feel love? One way to feel love is to feel pain no matter how much you feel you must feel pain..!!!!! If you can not feel pain then how can you feel love then? How much pain do you have to feel before you can feel love? When do you feel like the pain is gone away so that you may feel love again..!!! what if you never have felt like someone has loved you in your life time!!!! Or what if you feel like the one person whom really did love you is now gone for good!!!!!! What happens when the one person whom loved you no matter what you did or who you are with is gone for ever...!!! what happens when you realise that you can`t remember her smile or her laugh or even the way she talked... why can`t you remember the way she was with you and everything.. you want so much to see her smile and hear her laugh... It has not been long but you feel like your forgetting her already.... you really miss her and want her back in your life.. she was the only one whom knew you for you and loved you for just being you.... you know you need her in your life always.. you know you want to keep her in your life no matter what you don't care what people think.... anymore.. you always feel depressed and that you are worth nothing and that you are a loser and will get no where in your life time.... you just wish the pain inside would dissapear and be happy again....
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you know, reading your previous posts left me emotional at the end, sometimes rather confused but... Reading this one, I was overwhelmed at the end.
ReplyDeleteEspecially at that part that says "you know you want to keep her in your life no matter what you don't care what people think.... anymore.."...
It's making me speechless.
I know how you feel...i feel exactly the same....i don't care what people think of me and my only true love...yes they can judge and gossip....but the thing is they won't ever understand how we feel....the things that we have been through....the pain...the sorrow...the confusion...the sadness...the happiness...joyfulness.t..he suffering...and the self sacrificing pain.....this is what true love really is.... and its a once in a love time thing...
ReplyDeleteI know for sure the pain/wound in my heart that I have for my only true love won't ever heal/end....even if it does for a while....the wound will always open up whenever i think about her....especially when it rains...i will always pray to be with her in heaven...