forget

Sometimes no matter how hard we try to let go and move on we are caught hanging on held in place by our hearts and minds.

Caught and hanging by a amoment (Lifehouse had a great song about that)
we are unable to leave everything behind us.

No matter how many times my ex Bryan betrayed me I always stayed with him, always loved him even while distrusting him and slowly even hating him.
I would be ready to call it quits dying inside from the pain, I started hating who I was and yet I would fall for him all over again so easily.
I stopped loving him but it was not after he completely rejected me & trampled my heart. I stopped loving him because I had someone show me how much more I truly deserved, I fell in love with a good man whom made me realize how much of a bad man I had loved.

I wrote a poem once and the song I posted up top made me remember it as well as my line about hanging on to a moment so I will post that poem herre now.

holding on forever
I try to forget
but all I do is remember
I try to move on
but I'm holding on to forever

you'd say you love me
but you can't
you know it's a lie
I was holding on forever
to the thought of you and I

now I'm crying
never ending tears
I've said good-bye
because it was a lie

I gave my heart to a guy
thought he'd be true
thought I'd get to do
the things lovers always do

got the kisses hugs and sex
got the happiness
didn't expect what came next

got the lonliness
jealousy and greed
got the envy
they got what I need

I had some laughter
now I cry
got my heart broken
by this guy

got the memories
that I can't let go
I'm holding on to forever
wouldn't you know

my heart is broken
my tears constantly flow
I held on to you
for so long
even though I felt
as if your love was gone
I guess I shoulda known
it was time to move on

There's nothing now
that can make it right
so I close my eyes
shut them tight

I rock back and forth
as my tears fall down
wondering to myself
what do I do now

all my works of poetry are copywritten!

I forgot what I was going to write as I fell asleep writing this so I will end it here.